Yep I sure am...and at least it's something I can finally acknowledge and let go of. For so many years I've created work to sell - prior to polymer it was decorative wood art, handpainted tiles, painted glassware and beading...the list goes on.
I normally do one show a year and for me, it's more of a "catch up with old friends" than a selling event. I normally give lots of stuff away or will give discounts - every now and then I'll sell something for the listed price but not often - I am such a bad seller!!!
So, two hours into the show last year, I realised I didn't want to do this anymore - no more making to sell. I had wanted to stop "creating to sell" for a long time but making the break was such a hard thing to do because I had done it for so long. So that was it - the Christmas show finished and so was my selling career - yay!! I could finally move on.
My time now is spent in the studio exploring, playing, experimenting and coming up with new ideas...and I can spend hours at a time doing this. It's exciting...and to know I don't have to create to sell has "freed" me in a way I guess.
My income now is from running workshops and writing tutorials and of course the occasional sale in the home studio. Some tutorials can take hours to write - it's a huge process. Add to that the hours and hours spent in the studio coming up with those ideas - well let's just say it can be a very time consuming process.
The reason I'm telling you all this is because I get asked quite often how I do a certain technique or what inclusions I've used or how I managed to get "that look" and sometimes I just can't answer, especially if I'm working on a new workshop idea or tutorial technique. I know I've offended a few in the past for not giving away secrets and I'm sorry - really I am...but giving away those secrets is just like giving away the pieces I used to make to sell. I've never been in this business to make heaps of money (that's just not me) but it's nice to make enough to buy the next stash of clay.